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how can i ask ppl to understand what i myself dun understand? i'm just feelin so out of sorts, i dun even know why? maybe it's just me, i'm just throwin myself into everything i do so dat i wun have any free time to think abt things dat have been happening. but no matter how hard i try, it just keeps cumin back to me, and it isnt da greatest feelin, trust me. i'm lost i dunno what i shld do... it's like i have no idea where i shld go. i have no idea whether what i'm doin is right. i just cant rid of da thoughts dat seem to flood my head. i try not to think abt it, but do u have any idea how difficult it is? no one seems to understand. it's times like this dat i would rather be left alone... dun pretend to know me when u dun even understand what da hell i'm goin thru. i feel so tired of keepin up this whole facade, being happy, comfortin others, when i dun even know what da hell i'm doin. i'm really tired. but if i dun, i dun think i'll be left with anything. it's said dat in a relationship, u shld share every joy, every sorrow, but for me i dun think it applies. at least not anymore. my life is just too complicated. i would have to put up just another facade. sometimes i wonder who i can tell everything to, i mean everyone has someone, but not me. i dun think dey'll even understand me, and i also dun wan everyone to be plagued down with all my troubles. why not just let dem believe i'm just da blur gal who dun have a trouble in da world? i mean, things would be simpler dat way. sometimes i do wish dat dere would be someone, but i dun think so anymore. no it has nth to do with both guys, if dat's what ur thinkin. i'm just speakin frm a general view. i used to believe dat dere would be someone, but i dun believe in dat anymore. dere wun be anyone. and dat's da way life goes. i'm just a fuckin flop in life.